Nothing's Broken,

This is for you now,

I hurt myself in your name, just as I had for those before.
But you're still here when the others cease to exist.

Sometimes I think of what things would be like if I were the reason you smiled.

I imagine waking up next to you, watching you before you wake.
I'd pretend I was asleep when you flicker into consciousness, but we'd both know.

You'd pull me in closer, I'd feel your embrace and you'd feel my smile. I'd spend every minute with you and share the essence of my very being.

We'd laugh, cry and be angry at each other and the world but in the end it wouldn't matter because we'd be together.
There wouldn't be a day where I wouldn't let you know just how much I love and appreciate you, you'd never have to feel insecure.

I still envision this world every time I see, or even think of you. I guess you could say it haunts me, because I know it will never be.

I'll never be the reason you're in love.
 
I guess a part of me just thinks there's still hope, like maybe you'll slowly change your mind, or that there's a shadow of a doubt inside your head that is slowly eating away at you, giving me a chance to be with you.

But there isn't, is there?