Ticking By

I fall in love everyday.

I know it's stupid.

But it's always for the same reason.

That's how I remember this.

One day I won't find love anymore,

And I will break for good.

Time is ticking by and soon my world will fade to dust.

There will be nothing left here.

Nothing left of me.

Without You.

Frozen

You lied to me.

You lifted me up, and let me fall.

Why?

I wanted to believe in anything; I believed in you.

Is it that your heart grew too cold, and shattered?

Because you've frozen everything you left behind.

A blanket of stillness lies across me.

Every day gets colder.

Worth

 

With hope slowly fleeting I ask myself,

"Is any of this really worth it?"

If I keep fighting, can I win?

Or is defeat pre-determined?

I'm sorry if I let you down.

I failed at the one thing I really wanted.

 

Prisoner of Love

Your eyes sparkle in the street lights,
Their endlessness is insignificant

There could have been more

All this time I was searching for the truth
Now what do I say?

I already went on a journey

nothing mattered until I met you

The hope I feel is a light; slowly dimming
Now I feel so lost

The smell of fresh rain reminds me of you

Under the moon, there was so much potential
What happened to us?

What I feel was true
Tell me you felt it too
I'm being smothered by lies.

A Lost Thought

It's in the balloon you lost as a child when you accidentally let go of the string.

It's in the coin stuck in-between the couch cushions.

It's in the stray cat you don't see in the night.

It's in the steam from your bowl of soup when you're sick.

It's in the glance of the stranger from across the street.

It's in my heart, and in yours.

It always seems to find it's way around.

Sometimes we find it, sometimes we don't,

But it never loses it's purpose.

We may not know what that purpose is, and we may never find it...

Maybe we'll see it in the sunrise,

Or hear it in our favorite song.

It's in every graveyard,

And every pregnant lady's stomach.

It was with yesterday,

And today,

You may have missed it, but that's alright.

It's in tomorrow too.

An Oath to Insanity

It's so easy to lose everything.

Everything you have,

Everything you had,

And everything you want,

Could all be gone in an instant.

Losing your mind is no different.

When there's nothing left to fight for

Nothing left to gain

Or nothing left to lose

Why keep fighting?

What are we supposed to do when hope runs dry and we begin to choke on our insecurities?

What are we supposed to do when all we have left is slowly killing us, piece by piece and nobody even notices?

What are we supposed to do when we torture ourselves and everyone else thinks it's all we've ever wanted?

Nobody sees the tears,

Nobody hears the screaming,

Nobody has these scars,

But we don't give up.

We know, that no matter what we lose,

How far our mind leaves us,

How much we struggle that we must never give up.

Why?

Do we feel we owe it to ourselves to continue suffering?

Or do we really know that it'll get better?

Maybe it's at our lowest point when we realize that nothing really matters until you decide it does.

Maybe we decide what to lose and when; we decide to let it go.

We decide to lose our minds, because they're not adept enough to handle what life is really about.

We struggle to remind ourselves that we're human.

Every tear,

Every echo,

Every scar,

Is another reminder to never give up  and is never in vain.

We owe it to ourselves to continue suffering.

We owe it to ourselves to make it better.

For Those Walking By

To the Broken Girl running from Time:

I lied,

Time heals all wounds.

To the Boy who lost his Heart:

It misses you as much as you miss it,

You'll find it again soon.

To the Girl who's Heart I Broke:

I'm so sorry. If I could take anything back, that would be it,

I miss you every day.

To my Other Half:

This is a wild ride and it seems we've forgotten to get off,

Let's go another round?

To the One who Grants Wishes:

I believe in you,

I'm not the only one.

To the One who keeps me Grounded:

Thank you,

For everything.

To the Girl who loves Love:

Don't let anyone keep you down,

You deserve it all.

To the One who's left Scars:

You're a constant reminder of how magic exists,

You don't realize it, but I need you.

And most importantlly, to You:

Don't ever give up,

You inspire me.

Haven

I have met the time when I was at my lowest.

I think I met them on the subway. I've never been on a subway, but if that's where the point I'd be at my lowest, that's where I would meet it.

We exchanged a few words, condolences. We didn't have time for a full conversation, I was late.

Late to meet my highest point.

We talked about the world over coffee. I don't drink coffee. That moment was perfect.

I still ride the subway, but I have yet to meet either of them again.

I could do without meeting my lowest point again, and meeting someone better than my highest point.

Is that selfish?

Existence

 

You could have saved me.

Why didn't you save me?

Were you too busy surrounding yourself with those who had no concern for you?

You know that'd never work, as nothing you could ever do would ever send me away from you.

I know this is all about me.

I mean, you never really had much of an existence that didn't belong to me.

But don't think your meager existence didn't mean anything.

If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't see things as I do now.

You have taught me hope. I learned it back when you were all I had.

You have taught me to let go. I only rely on you, so as long my hope remains, so will you.

Lost in the Wind

Strike the match, burn me

Burn this place to the ground.

You wouldn't have it any other way,

And I couldn't be anywhere else.

Lay me down amongst the ashes.

If you can't handle the flames let me drift away in the wind,

Like we did.

Stop

Stop turning the lights on, just stop it.

It's dark; this world has to be dark and you're ruining it.

Why can't you just go away. Leave this place.

Leave me alone.